I always thought ...

I always thought I had more time,
but death was on a tight schedule.
Maybe we can meet for coffee on the other side.

I always thought truth might lead the way,
but the road to success came through many lies.
Failure now suits me just fine.

I always thought I'd find a friend;
I only found a fiend.
Who needs friends, really?

I always thought the sun would shine;
then it began to rain.
Now I carry an umbrella everywhere I go, which dampens my spirit.

I always thought she'd hold my hand;
then I saw her fingers entwined with another's.
Her happy smile was my sad face.

I always thought I'd win her smile;
Then I heard her laughing in the tall grass with another.
Their laughter was my cruel mockery.

I always thought the meanness would stop;
it turned to furry.
Now a little ill humor doesn't bothers me at all.

I always thought that love would flow;
it turned off like a faucet.
I quit feeling bad about smoking.

I always thought I'd win her heart;
she awarded it to someone who didn't care.
For awhile I wanted to die. Isn't that funny? Then he left her.

I always thought I would have the perfect thought;
then I thought I wanted to die.
I gave up thinking about anything for awhile.

I always thought I'd see the rainbow in the sky;
I was washed into the river by a flash flood.
Now I'm happy when it's just not raining.

I always thought I'd die a peaceful death;
now I lie in the street a sick old man.
I'll be glad to die anyway I can; I just want the pain to stop.

I always thought that someday I'd be happy;
that was before I was engulfed by deep depression.
Now I'm happy if I'm not too unhappy.

I always thought the war would end;
then they began dropping bombs all around me.
There is no end in sight now other than mine.

I always thought they would have a change of heart;
instead, they tried to kill me.
"Never change," as the song says, "'cause I love you just the way you look tonight."

I always thought they'd see the light;
instead, they barricaded their minds.
For some the light is just too bright.
By Louis Martin